Monday, December 27, 2010

Ironics 101

Today Spike TV is runnning Band of Brothers from start to finish.  My friend Tina's son Joey is home on leave from a forward COP position in Afghanistan.  I wonder what he makes of this or if he's even aware that it's on. 

I could be watching this on DVD, but then I'd have to mess with remotes and changing disks.  I can tune out the ads and write when they're on.  This was one of Erek's favorites.  As he was dying, without even thinking about my liking it, he gave it and a bunch of DVD's I bought for ME as well as him to his son who managed to get here a day and a half before he died.  I went out and replaced everrything he gave away because they'd been my faves as well.

And it may seem odd that I have such an attachment to a war series.  I'm antiwar. However, this was a part of my father's youth and some of the most intense memories of his life, just as Viet Nam was a part of Erek's life.  It haunts those who survive it.  It buries survivor's guilt into many of them.  In some who survive it, they are motivated to overcome that survivor's guilt by working to make the world a better place.  Sometimes just making themselves into the best people they can be makes not only their world but also the worlds of those around them a better place.

Some don't deal with the guilt.   They just bury it and it rears itself in the consumption of everything without an end to the hunger, because they don't know what the hunger is.

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